家族は大好きです。私は家族に祝福したある。
Week 5
Life in the MTC feels
like it is all one day. Even after 5 + weeks I feel like I've really been lied
to and that it is really not August, but I've been in this Truman Show type
world for 5 months. It just feels like I'm in a giant missionary ant farm sometimes.
I can't wait to get to Japan in 3 weeks and actually have real life happen
around me and run into real people. Although I discovered this week that I will
not even be able to read a Japanese newspaper because you must know 3,000(ish)
Kanji in order to read a newspaper. Most misisonaries after 2 years have the
reading and writing capacity of a Japanese kindergartener.
So last week I meant to
send this in my letter but didn't because I forgot. Last week was Pioneer day
and I had always not enjoyed hearing about the Pioneers and how miserable they
were and how boring all of the stories about these old people were and being
bugged why we focus so much on them. My attitude was always a sort of, "I
get it, they suffered so that we could live in this barren desert called
Utah" And in some ways that is correct. However, I hadn't truly
appreciated the sacrifice of these Pioneers until I came on my mission. I'd
never realized how big of a sacrifice it was for these people to trek across
the American Great Plains until I had to give up everything I had and give up
my life for the sake of inviting others to their personal Zion. I believe my
mission to be my personal Pioneer Journey to the West! (Okay so it's actually
the Far East but I'm travelling West to get there) I won't be pulling a
handcart or suffering on meager rations (I hope), but I will have different
hardships to overcome. Cultureshock, companion problems and learning this
impossible language instead of Rocky Ridge, Buffalo Chips and the North
Platte River Crossing.
Speaking of problems,
here are mine. I am not extremely optimistic, or really very optimistic at all.
Also, my companion, though he is getting better at it, struggles far more than
I with Japanese. I am also quite cynical, which often leads to discouragement,
or skepticism instead of hope. So anyway, I tend to become overwhelmed and
discouraged because I am able to see all that I have yet to learn. I am too
much of a perfectionist to be content with an okay or alright lesson. I am so
logical that I get bothered if we don't fully explain the doctrine in a manner
that logically makes sense to the investigator. Through all of this, I found
that the real problem is my faith. Not that I lack faith, but that I don't
exercise it enough. Faith is like any muscle, it must be torn, strained and
worked hard before it can grow stronger. I'm not sure how exactly I can
exercise my faith more frequently, but I know I can strive to have greater hope
than doubt.
So our entire district is
sick. We all have a nasty cold type thing which is yucky, and it makes us all
very tired all the time. It's not the best idea to have six people living in a
room the size of Andrew's room. Especially when one of them practices very poor
hygiene despite our continued requests for him to better clean himself. We have
two humidifiers in our room which... do absolutely nothing. I sleep on the top
bunk so it doesn't affect me at all, and every day this week I have become more
and more sick.
The other day マク。長老 (Elder Mak) felt like he
had a dark cloud over him and was just depressed and so he asked if we could
give him a blessing. I had the opportunity to participate in my first
priesthood blessing which was a cool experience to know that I am able to act
in the name of God with his power and authority. It was one of those moments
where you look at it and realize that this is real. That I'm actually a
Missionary and I'm not just some kid who graduated from High School at a 9 week
long intense EFY. Also on the way to the Tuesday night devotional at the
Marriot Center, we walked by a couple groups of EFY kids and realized that we
are actually doing what we have prepared our whole lives to be able to do. It
was just a cool moment to experience.
Every day really
seems more and more the same, I think I may be losing my mind here. 3 weeks
left and then it's off to Japan! Everyone pray for me to learn this
ridiculously hard language! Also I ran into Elder Caine this morning who got
here this Wednesday. When does Elizabeth Pace come to the MTC? And is Richard
Worsham going to the Peru MTC or Provo? I enjoy seeing people from home to say
hi, but I just feel weird talking to them because it usually ends up being
about home and just making us mad and miss home so yeah. Also I don't like how
half the people i know are at the MTC West (Wyview) campus. I wanted to see
some of them! Oh well.
私は私の家族に愛していますよ! 私は皆さんを愛していますよ!
心から,
ペイス。長老 (Elder Pace)
P.S. yes that is actually
what my nametag will look like!
Aaaahh!!! Going crazy here waiting for Elder Pace's most recent letters. I'm sure you're busy, out of town, or otherwise occupied ... but please try to post as soon as you can. Thx! :D
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